Will's Allergic Reaction: Being a mom will put me in a mental institution
I started this blog to get out my inner comedic thoughts that come up in my day to day life as a mom. I try to keep it pretty light. However, last week Will had his first severe allergic reaction and I can say that my family and I will never be the same.
Personally, I have been through a lot, medically. I am a childhood cancer survivor, have endured back surgery, shoulder surgery, PCOS and a hell of a pregnancy and recovery. But seeing my baby in distress trumps anything that I have ever gone through. My heart broke and I am still recovering from it, emotionally.
I left Will with my mom to go to an appointment. We always buy the Plum Organics pouches and I told her to give him one that they had in their house as a snack after he woke up from his nap. On my way back I stopped at a friend’s house and when I was about 5 minutes from my parents house my mom called me. She said Will had a pouch about an hour ago with apples, plums, lentils and cinnamon, and was getting red and itchy. I said it was weird that I’d be there soon. I assumed it was just his eczema since he’s had all of those things before. She didn’t want to scare me so she said come in when you get here. When I pulled up they were waiting in the doorway, and when I saw him I said “OH MY GOD. HE IS NOT OK.”
The minute I walked in his entire face was so swollen that he was almost white, lips were white/blue and he was limp. He then started vomiting (which the doctors said was a good thing). I saw the pouch wrapper, flipped it over and saw “skim milk powder” in the ingredients. I ordered my mom to call 911 and I made her ask the dispatcher if I should give the Epipen. They said yes and I immediately gave it to him in his thigh. I said to myself “Don’t fuck this up, you only have one pen with you.” He cried which seemed like a good sign to me. We waited outside as he continued to vomit and was still pretty limp. Within minutes the fire dept, police and ambulance arrived. They gave him oxygen, got him hooked up to heart monitors, nebulizer and off we went to the hospital. On the way they gave him a shot of benedryl in his thigh.
Once we got to the hospital he was essentially one giant hive. He was so red and swollen they couldn’t find his veins. The nurses tried and thought they had one but had to remove the needle. While waiting for the pediatric specialists they gave him a steroid shot that helped his redness and swelling immediately. We still had to get an IV in which was the most horrible experience of my life. After a shot of pepcid in his IV and a few more hours of waiting, we finally got cleared to go home.
After the Adrenaline wore off:
My husband was working in Long Island that day which never happens. He happened to call me while I was in the ambulance and I had to alert him of what was going on. By the time we got to the ER my parents were already there and my mom was very upset. I held it together and was composed from the minute I realized he wasn’t okay until the minute I realized he was ok. When Joe got into the ER I finally let myself cry a bit.
We went home with prescriptions for more epipens, a nebulizer, and steroids for a few more days. We also had to give him more benadryl when we got home. We were instructed to take him to his pediatrician within 24 hours to make sure he was okay. As soon as we got home he was totally fine! His skin looked better than ever from all of the steroids! They said next time a reaction will happen much faster. Great! It has taken me some time to feel okay. I couldn’t sleep the first night picturing his face and going through the entire sequence of events. After thinking about it though,I really wouldn’t have done anything differently. I am feeling protective and emotional about the whole thing. I feel paranoid and slightly traumatized. I am now looking for a nursing student as a babysitter (if anyone has any references!). I would like for him to never leave my side and be homeschooled for the rest of his life so I can kiss him all day :). My mom is also working on feeling better.
The moral of the story is:
Accidents happen. These allergies are very serious and very real. I am so happy that we got him tested as a little baby. It is the best thing I’ve done.
I wrote to the Plum Organics company about listing milk as an ingredient on the front of the pouches that contain milk products. They do that when there is yogurt in a pouch, why would this be any different? They called me immediately and said they will pass this along to packaging and corporate. They sent me coupons for more death pouches. Thanks.
Okay back to being funny and cursing. FUCK ALLERGIES. I always feel like a douche asking servers if there is dairy, eggs, peanuts or nuts in the food we order. But these allergies are very real and very scary! Motherhood will put me in a mental institution.