I give my kid formula. I am a terrible Mom.

I give my kid formula. I am a terrible Mom.

Mother's Milk

Mother's Milk

The second you see two lines on a stick, everyone and their mother has an opinion of how you should live your life. Breastfeeding is one of the most discussed topics.

I feed Will formula, and guess what? He’s alive! He’s doing pretty great actually.

If you are a nursing mommy, I bow down to you! It is not easy and I give you credit. All of us must do what works for us and if that means hitting the bottle (for you and the baby), that is OKAY. 

I never planned on breastfeeding for very long. I had to travel right after I had the baby. I was in a wedding at six weeks postpartum and at eleven weeks postpartum (I left him with my parents). It was hard enough leaving him, and I knew that if I had been nursing it would have been even more difficult. Aside from traveling, I just never saw myself being a mom that would whip out my F cups in the middle of a mall. That is, if I decided to ever go to a mall. 

In addition to being the worst pregnant person on the planet, I was also miserable postpartum. Right after I had the baby, I developed an infection from my C-section, and I also had an allergic reaction the cleanser they used to prep me for surgery, Chloroprep. I developed an unbearable rash, and had to go on antibiotics for the infection and steroids for the rash. It was a very sexy time. I was essentially only producing milk out of my right boob for some reason. Once I went on the steroids, my supply dried up. So I pumped for five and a half weeks, and then I was done.

From day one, Will had formula in the evenings. When I was in the hospital I wanted to sleep at night, given that I had enough problems. When we came home from the hospital, I was lucky enough to have a baby nurse. By giving him formula at night, I only had to wake up once to pump and I didn't have to feed him myself. 

I found pumping to be easier for me. Since my right boob produced so much more than my left, I knew exactly how much my little guy would be getting, and he didn’t have to suffer through any frustration when he realized my right boobie had nada. My right breast actually leaked while I was still pregnant. How attractive is that?! Anyone who says they love being pregnant is either lying or delusional. 

Will had some constipation issues with the first formula we put him on, so I went with my (mushy) gut and switched him to Enfamil Gentlease and he has had no issues.

The moral of the story is:You do you! So many women feel pressure to continue breastfeeding even if they don’t feel it is right for them. It is pretty awesome for losing weight. In fact, when I am angry at my scale I debate trying to squeeze some out (kidding). I am happy giving my baby formula. He is growing like crazy and I don’t feel as though my boobs run my life. Well, they are a large part of my life due to their size, but that's a different story.

Whether you are a breastfeeding beauty or formula slinging mama, don't like the haters stop you from doing your thang.

 

Go to Sleep! (Bethenny Voice)

Go to Sleep! (Bethenny Voice)

So I had a baby.

So I had a baby.